God Bless You and your little girl!
I do not know you but I want you to know that you used the last 365 days heroically! I too lost my husband although it was at a much different time in my life, after my children had grown up. It was a very hard first year but luckily I had a strong boss at work who insisted I come back to work after a few weeks. I thought I couldn’t do it, I was so wrong. It saved me, work and daily interaction with peers helped me feel grounded again, they were my family when truly related family members couldn’t be there for me on a daily basis.
I know that every time you feel weak and uninspired to start your day you will look into the eyes of your little girl and know that you have found your reason. I couldn’t have done it without mine, they were and still are my reason.
God Bless you,
I don’t know you, but I love you….Stay strong, fight the good fight. It’s all you can do, but you have proven it is doable. You and Mira will thrive and survive. Joe is always with you through her. You are still family.
You inspire me everytime I read something you wrote to be a better person, to always think before I speak and to allow my friend who lost her husband to talk, really talk and for me to listen, not comment, not interject, just listen. I learned all this from you, I have been appalled at the statements people have made to her, not maliciously just without thinking.
Joe is so proud of you and Mira, I know it! You are strong, beautiful, an amazing mother and a great teacher to all of us. Please know that I am thinking of the three of you today.
You are braver than you know. I think of how you must be doing many days. xo
I enjoyed reading your story. My husband died from cancer leaving me alone to raise two children and my youngest just graduated from college this year. We were married for thirty two years and I feel like half of me is missing. I formed a spouse support group and I have been meeting with these three people for nine years. I will never be the same and my life is divided into before and after. Thank you for making me feel better.
I’ve only met you once at the Cocktails and Chemo fundraiser Bears outing,,,but I can tell you that you left an imprint on me that will be with me for a lifetime! That night I came home and read every single one of your blogs that you wrote…so that is how I came to know you!I think you are an amazing woman! Your words that you write are so honest…sometimes they make you cry and other times I just laugh out loud! Yes you are gifted! 365 days is not enough…is there really a time limit? I don’t think so!
You are amazing! So real. There is no time limit as to how long we mourn the loss of a loved one. You will know when you’re ‘ready’. No one can tell you differently. Everyone has a story. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Love you getting your journey down in words for all to see. So eloquent and true…I am a widow for over 6 years now. I am not as young as you, but my husband died at 45. Still too young. How I remember like yesterday all you describe. What I can tell you is grief never leaves; it just changes. And you are forever changed. Abundant blessings to you on your continued journey. Thank you for your blog!
This is so touching and well written. My own cancer diagnosis was 2.5 years ago. Although my health is stable at the moment and I’m currently living a relatively normal life (a real luxury!) I will never feel normal again. Every day I worry about the possibility of leaving my husband and children behind. I have coached my husband on what to do if I don’t make it. “Promise me you’ll find love again,” I’ve told him earnestly. So reading your blog matters to someone like me. It really helps me to see that life can go on for our soulmates, even if it is a mixed bag of experiences and emotions. Thanks for your willingness to share some of those excruciating, awkward, painful, and even feel unbearable moments with us.
Amanda, I hope you are serious when you say “material for my book…” Please, please! I would love to buy a book comprised of your previous beautiful essays from the blog and the experiences of this past year. I know I am not alone. Please! Much love to you, my dear.
THANK YOU for this. Today I start my day 365. We all have our own journeys but the feelings are the same. Thank you for always writing from the heart and helping us. And I would definitely buy your book!
You are strong.
You are brave.
You are (and please remain) honest.
You are amazing…and on the days you don’t feel these things; look at your beautiful daughter, she’ll remind you!