I do understand and my heart breaks for you. I lost my husband of almost 40 years, 4 years and 9 months ago. It is the little everyday, ordinary things that I miss. The pain takes your breath away. What I would give for an “ordinary” day with him! Sending hugs to you and Mira!
Linda Reed Smith Hard not to cry reading your posts; I don’t know you, but my heart breaks for you. You are some strong lady. May only good things happen next to your and your sweet baby girl.
I lost my husband of 51 years last June. I do understand the little things too. I never realized all the small things he helped me with.. opening jars, getting things down that I couldn’t reach, helping with the dogs… I could go on and on. I miss sitting out in our courtyard together just being silly or talking about mundane things. I have my children and grandchildren but really no one that always put me first. It is so lonely at night sometimes. I read something and turn to tell him about it and he is not there. Just trying to learn the “new normal” is hard. Sending blessings and better days for you and your little Mira.
Coming across the “might have beens” and “what ifs” 🙁 That sock…. You are on a very non ordinary journey, every day seems there’s a new and unfamiliar road, what one do I take??? I wish life was the way you and Joe had planned it. I am praying the heart ache is somehow a tad less each time you discover a memory and a part of what was, and always know look no further than your chest-he’s always there, in your heart <3 Hugs to you and Mira XX
Take the time to also realize that God and Joe will continue to provide those special ” gifts” (or reminders) of the love and life shared. The tears, I pray, turn to a slight smile as the memories that were made are the important part of your journey. God Spoed…
A lot of take-aways in this post that I’ll remember for a long time. It is very touching but at the same time, my heart breaks for you. I know it doesn’t hurt as much as you are. I’m sorry about you having to move out of the home you shared with Joe but am glad you are able to take some of his paintings with you!
I’m sad for you, and I wish he was there to open your juice. You are incredibly strong. Xo
I have friends that follow You, Joe and Mira, I read your updates time to time and I ache for you. As time passes you will start to see more and more of Joe all around you. Once you let yourself feel him… play his favorite music, wear his cologne, keep those old boxers. You will feel him everywhere. And when you are ready you will heal. It’s always going to sting but you will heal.